it's a great way for her to keep you in her heart and since your screen name indicates you are pathetic this activity should make you very happy. I know it would put a mental smile on my face while recovering from the ball blasting. I f I didn't want to be treated this well I would stop my seeking out women who enjoyed the control over me. So I say to you: congrats for being treated exactly like you wanted to be treated: sheer ab-use